I had such a blast hanging out with Tambrie last night ordering dinner out, talking shop, brainstorming Christmas gifts, making last minute Michael’s runs, and sipping Starbucks. In between trick-or-treaters and watching Elizabethtown, she taught me how to crochet and I now I am addicted (why do you think I put this off for so long!?)
She told me it would be a little hard in the beginning until I found the flow. She said I would need to learn how to use my fingers and my muscles to hold the yarn and that I might even go through a period of dissolution, just like teaching. I struggled a bit at first to find the flow and then when I did I still made it harder than it had to be by forcing the needle and pulling the yarn. I do that. I try so hard I make it harder than it has to be.
I’ve got to be honest, October was really tough. I’ve been down more than I’ve been up and I think part of that had to do with the unending sickness that lasted all month. I am taking steps to put me back into a good place. I am still riding high from our recent snow storm (eventhough the snow has completely melted already) and I have Christmas on the brain. Yes, Christmas. In my opinion, it is the most wonderful time of the year and all this other stuff in between – just filler. There, I said it. In any case, it is November now. And while, in the past, this has also been a hard month I do have hope.
I took things slow today and started out Fall Back morning with some coffee and crochet. I put some background music on and let my fingers find the flow. It worked. I stopped trying to force things and I just let my muscles get comfortable with the tension and movement. As I look at this month, my old October self would normally see it as a long-haul. As in, all the weeks are full 5 day weeks, no break until Thanksgiving, no relief. However, as I understand the rhythm of the yarn I see this as a chance to really find some flow. No interruptions, no sickness, no conferences, meetings, snow days to get us out of sorts. I hate saying it but I think it will be really good for me.
So, here’s to November – a fresh start to finding the flow and one month closer to Christmas!